Lost Love

so.. theres someone that i know realize is the most important person in my life (somewhat) he is the one person that i have said i love you too. the ironic part is that i see him and all but cant tell him i still fill this way. we went out for a yr and a half. it was almost 2 yrs ago that we broke up i dont know how i can still feel that way after i went out him i havent had a good relationship. i think that he and i would be still be going out after all this time if shit would not have happened well ill start from the begging we met randomly in this restaurant i went up to him and asked him the time i know its me weird going up to a guy haha but yea we pretty much started talking and flirting and at the time i didnt have a cell phone so he gave me his. i called him the next day i know to soon but yea we went out that night and went to see some eddy murphy movie.. oh and i took my sister i know its lame but yea.. we then started going out and hanging out and he asked me to be his girlfriend the day before valentine's day 2/13/07 i was so happy with him and to make my story not that long we got in a fight cause of my mom he lived with his best friend. And we were mad for about a week in that week his nest friend cousin showed up when he was drinking. she had athing for him and he slept with her cause he was drunk and then we started talking and he wanted us to get back together i said no after he told me what had happened. his best friend didnt really liked me cause he was mad that he would spend more time with me he then told me his cousin was pregnant and my ex bf was the father nd now he still is with her but still talks to me and all. i wish i could go back in time and be happy again he now looks tired and all he looks literary like crap. what hurts me the most i think is seeing his son. he looks exactly like him. she somewhat knows that i talk to him but when i hang out with it seems as if im hiding from her she calls him every 5 min when she knows im with him i suppose its sad really i think she knows that we were happy and she screwed it up for well better yet he screwed it up for himself literary. we look at each other and wish that there was so chance for us to change the past and be happy now and not be as we are now he with somene he doesnt love and i with no one him and i at jr prom (i dont know why his right eye is red)